Bookish (and not so Bookish) Thoughts

I was thinking back today about a boy in fourth grade who made fun of how I walked, my allergies, and my glasses daily. There are so many things wrong with this. First of all, I had a crush on him, and it stuck around way after his teasing began. Why have I always put up with so much crap from people? Secondly, why did my teacher keep me in the same group as him, even after I left in tears for the bathroom one day and I heard her yell at him through the open window? It seemed unnecessarily cruel. He is actually married now to someone I went to high school with, so I always give a huge eye roll when I see her gush about her “hubby,” although I guess technically he could have grown out of his fourth-grade bullying ways (are she too fell into the same trap I did as a ten-year-old). It’s interesting, investigating when we started making mistakes and whether or not we ever learned.

I’ve felt lighter, like spiritually, that is, lately, more so than the last year (this sounds so new age and ridiculous, I know). I think a huge part of this is being on top of a lot of work-things, but also making an effort to get together with friends every weekend. Nothing fancy, but I think I’ve hung out with friends for the past four or five weekends, on top of seeing friends at work every day, and it’s just made me so much happier. I’m so fortunate that my friends either have kids or don’t mind mine, so it makes it easier to have a social life. Last week a friend of mine whose kids are grown hosted a little playdate for Sawyer and another one of her friend’s with a kid his age, whom I did not know. It was such a blast! I loved his mom, Sawyer loved the kid, and we all hit it off that it was sad to leave.

I’ve decided to start paying attention to my macros. I don’t want to commit and say that I’m going to count them, but for now I’m going to keep track and pay attention. I will never, ever be able to commit to a diet plan (high five to those of you doing keto, Whole 30, etc…), but this way I will be more aware of the ratio of macronutrients I’m consuming and can play around with the ratios to be healthier, lose a few pounds, but also still enjoy things I love. My diet right now is EXTREMELY carb heavy, so I know there is a little bit of work to be done. Luckily my Fitbit will do the math for me, because there’s no way I’d do this on my own.

I’m reading the new Atwood, guys, and I have some thoughts. It’s definitely good and I’m relieved it’s not a print version of the show, but I am feeling like it’s a bit more accessible than the first book (not necessarily a good thing…). I’m only about 1/3 of the way in, so I’ll post when my opinions have been solidified.

We're entering the September-November tussle of summer vs fall here in Southern California. The nights are getting much cooler and the days have entered the eighties, so.... whoa. Scarves? Too soon?

On that note, we're going to the beach this weekend.